Tuesday, February 3, 2009
a flawed start
i've never been able to keep a journal from start to finish. i start with excellent intentions, and usually do well for the first ten pages or so, and then my thoughts leak onto grocery receipts, bills, parking tickets, and so on, and then the poor journal is abandoned. even in school i couldn't manage to keep my notes sequential and separated by subject. for the first month my notes were picture perfect, outlined and dotted and numbered and dated, and then like clockwork, the grand unraveling began. french drifted to finance, business law mixed with astronomy, marketing consorted with the history of disease, and then my shopping lists and doodles and never-sent letters meshed with it all until my semester was one big potluck casserole. somewhere along the way i got the notion that my patchwork thinking made for lousy journaling, so i gave it up. when i started drawing again recently it was only on loose sheets of paper so i didn't focus on having to fill a book or put anything in sequence.
but i've been intrigued by moleskines for a long time, and i knew if i tried to bind my thoughts again some day, it would be in one of these. when i discovered thereza's amazing moleskine sketches last year, i was smitten (and still am) with her talent and her approach to journaling as a tool for self-discovery. then i picked up the first issue of art journaling magazine (which has a great article by art buddy lynn fisher), which got me thinking, "well... maybe..." and the final whap on the backside came when ricë started her series of journal spanks. she makes journaling so free, easy and fun that there is really no excuse not to start doodling in a book.
so, off i go. here are the first two pages of my bound thoughts - i wonder how long it will be before they start screaming that they want out. i'm labeling this journal flawed from the beginning in hopes that i'll have a greater chance of sticking with it, knowing that some pages i'll like, others will suck, and that it's OK not to always know where i'm going with the creative process.