Saturday, October 24, 2009

watching from the sidelines


(painted windows at au marché)


(drawings on priority mail stickers, found next door to the mad greek)


(fancy stuff at sarah's fabrics)


(the last leaves falling)


(and a little girl writing)

i've been impressively unproductive and at a loss for compound thoughts for nearly a week. after a few days of moping and even getting a bit frantic over it all, i put the histrionics aside and decided to give in wholly to being an observant lazy ass until the moment passes. for now i will just watch the world around me, with a beer in one hand and a burrito in the other. the doer and the dreamer will return when they are ready.

susie sent me this spectacular poem.

Wild Geese
by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.


●• Thereza said...

absolutely delightful!!! and i can't believe that by some chance i'm the first to comment (on this post) on your busy blog!

Inner Toddler said...

how is it that you always say it just right. you and mary oliver... ;)

soulbrush said...

i think it's a brilliant idea to stop and watch the world go by sometimes. and what a great poem.

Leenie said...

Inspiration is often hard to find, even when it is sitting in your lap. Being observant and relaxed may not bring a great idea, but at least you'll have a good time! After reading Mary Oliver's poem I feel better already.

heather smith jones said...

Honestly I have been feeling similarly, mopey. Perhaps I need to give into it as you are. Mary Oliver is so good, I like the last part "over and over announcing your place in the family of things." Wow, that's like a warm blanket around cool shoulders, eh?
Curious, what kind of beer?

wild child said...

yes, yes, and yes :)

Meg xoxo

Aris said...

perfect. I am with your lazy ass. I'm just wishin I had a burrito(:
Cheers to a whole lot of absolutely nothin!!!!

e.beck.artist said...

productive can be over rated .... stopping and watching the leaves change can be a worthwhile endeavor in and of itself .....

Melody Sage said...

Beautiful poem and pictures! You've been so productive lately you probably need to refill. I get like that after a busy period, agreeably empty like a washed cup.

Bella Sinclair said...

You are my kind of girl. Beer in one hand, burrito in the other, and in between, one lazy ass.

Honestly, I was stuck gazing at your new gorgeous header. I almost didn't scroll down to this post. Glad I did, though. Loved those fall leaves. I miss 'em.

trinsch said...

sounds good to me, being lazy and observe there for a while. add a beer and a burrito and we're close to perfection :)

Christine said...

Lovely landscapes:-) Sounds great to lay back for a bit.

Jill said...

All those moments help top up your inspiration until it overflows again.
To quote:
"You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees..."

steve said...

Sometimes you can't force it, but do exactly as you're doing. Taking exceptional photos like these are still very much acts of creativity - thanks for sharing Aimee!

jess gonacha swift said...

I love that poem. I've read it before and it always makes me feel calmer. I'm with you on the unproductiveness, too- I just laid on the couch for an hour doing nothing, just laying there- not sleeping, not reading.... I think we all need that sort-of nothing time to recharge and get back to our creative selves!

AmandaMay said...

Especially after finishing a big project, I think it is good to take a break. Let your mind settle and who knows what will emerge! Great poem.

Anairam said...

I think your fantastic commission, which is now completed, sapped your creative juices for a while. So it is good to rest a bit and just look and observe. I don't know how people like you remain so creative anyway! I have about one new thought every two months. If I'm lucky. Oh, I love that poem - thanks for sharing!

la ninja said...

yup, embracing lazyassness (as you put it) is paramount. most of the time it is just an impasse between different stages or simply a well-deserved rest.
all that bloody pressure. always. bah.

I'm with you, cheers to lazyassness coming in any form, volume, colour or strength!
(you've read my "dream" post; similar thing, but more on the couldn't-find-my-own-ass(ness)-with-both-hands-and-a-map(ness) so I stopped looking for it and went for a beer too. much better now :)

plus I agree with these lovely people, I reckon you had a mild case of acute-ketubah-ism-non-stoppidus.

joanne said...

i've loved that poem too and am so glad you have it now... it's awesome to just let things pass in and through and do with us what they will... it isn't the tide that is the problem, it is our resistance that gives us the distress...


L'Atelier said...

you are such an inspiration! relax & enjoy- dont pressure yourself. when you ready you will be doing amazing things again
but then you watching produces amazing things too :)
thank for being!

Terri said...

now i'm hungry for a burrito.

but honestly, just know that you posting this poem (and me not reading it until today) is hugely meaningful to me. crazy-awesome synchronicity universe-conspiring cartwheel-inducing meaningful.

so, thank you.

la ninja said...

okay, let's have a go at writing a serious comment (why? dunno. 'cos it's raining...?)

I read this and it struck a chord (I have many friends caught up in the frenzy that it is making their lives complicated with "made-up" obligations) so I thought I'd share with you as you, doodley-lazyass-girlie got it just right: burrito, beer. no more, no less. enjoy the ride. :)

“There are different species of laziness: Eastern and Western. The Eastern style is like the one practised in India. It consists of hanging out all day in the sun, doing nothing, avoiding any kind of work or useful activity, drinking cups of tea, listening to Hindi film music blaring on the radio, and gossiping with friends. Western laziness is quite different. It consists of cramming our lives with compulsive activity, so there is no time at all to confront the real issues. This form of laziness lies in our failure to choose worthwhile applications for our energy.”

– Sogyal Rinpiche

lori vliegen said...

it's good to take some time and watch the world go by.....especially whilst enjoying a beer and a burrito....

cactus petunia said...

Beautiful poem! And so true...we need to listen more.
And I'm with you on the burrito and beer!

Nina Crittenden said...

Congrats on finishing your ketubah- absolutely amazing!! Impressively unproductive made me chuckle. You are even creative when you don't think you are! ;)

Shannon said...

i LOVE that poem and i love that you are allowing the "doer" and the "dreamer" to rest, listen and observe. we need that balance to be fully alive creative beings.

i recognize those lawrence spots. let's get together in your town soon.

painted fish studio said...

rest. you deserve it.

(i miss lawrence!)

cindy said...

sometimes, you just have to be and recharge your batteries without thinking you're doing so. hope that makes sense ;).

Esti said...

I'd sit by you with another burrito :)

Lynn Fisher said...

You have the right to have some time for yourself Aimee...enjoy! (I love the little girl writing...the writer in me loves to watch children enjoy the written word)

Katrina said...

my favorite parts, "You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves." and those trees, my goodness, those trees..

The Original Drama Mama said...

That's the 2nd great poem I've come across today! Be still my former-high-school-English-teacher heart! I commend you on your ability to embrace your laziness...and deciding that is is a time for observation was very wise ;)
Enjoy the B&B! (When I'm being lazy, I like the W& and wheat thins).

~Valentina~ said...

I think is absolutely perfect to slow down and enjoy 2 beers and 3 burritos :) *LOVE* the drawings on priority mail stickers!

Le blÖg d'Ötli said...

Your photos are like your drawings... beautiful !

peggyfussell said...

I have been so busy in my own world and I've missed visiting yours!! Mary Oliver is a favorite of mine too. My busy time has passed (for now), I have been laid low by the flu (doesn't that always happen after a big busy time?) and am now enjoying catching up and "watching from the sidelines" Thanks for providing me with so much good stuff to look at :)